i have to stop torturing myself. i've been debbie downer all weekend and i must stop!
first off i gotta lay off the forums i frequent. one in particular is depressing the hell out of me. perhaps it's a sign that i should move on.
my grief group has been very good to me over the past 3 months. maybe i don't need it anymore since we've been TTC since august. reading about someone else getting lucky is just putting me in a down mood and i just don't need it. it's putting too much pressure on me and even hubby and that's that last thing i need right now.
on the other hand, the TTC group also makes me feel depressed. some are getting lucky and that hurts too. then there are the ones who've been trying for ages, and i feel guilty becos i already have a kid and i can just picture these girls saying "what are you so down about? you already have a kid."
i have to stop putting words in my head. i'm really good at that. i'm not psychic, so i should stop acting like it.
for some bizzarro reason i've been on a dishrag kick for the past few weeks. never mind i have 3 pairs of socks, a xmas scarf and a 2-year old sweater UFO hanging out. yet i found 2 more neat dishrag patterns to work on!
first off i gotta lay off the forums i frequent. one in particular is depressing the hell out of me. perhaps it's a sign that i should move on.
my grief group has been very good to me over the past 3 months. maybe i don't need it anymore since we've been TTC since august. reading about someone else getting lucky is just putting me in a down mood and i just don't need it. it's putting too much pressure on me and even hubby and that's that last thing i need right now.
on the other hand, the TTC group also makes me feel depressed. some are getting lucky and that hurts too. then there are the ones who've been trying for ages, and i feel guilty becos i already have a kid and i can just picture these girls saying "what are you so down about? you already have a kid."
i have to stop putting words in my head. i'm really good at that. i'm not psychic, so i should stop acting like it.
for some bizzarro reason i've been on a dishrag kick for the past few weeks. never mind i have 3 pairs of socks, a xmas scarf and a 2-year old sweater UFO hanging out. yet i found 2 more neat dishrag patterns to work on!
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