dream a scary dream with me

i know hormones make weird dreams especially scary baby dreams but this dream takes it. it's the first time i had a true nightmare.

the other night i dreamt that i was driving through kreamer. i heard sirens and was preparing to pull over for an ambulance or fire truck when i heard someone say i had to pull over becos i couldn't be on the road. so i pulled off onto a side street and parked where i knew i could just pull out. i saw these yellow trucks that said "civil air defense" and saw a crowd of people in front of wood-mode.

i got out of my car and was trying to call my mom but found my phone only had 2 bars (as usual). somehow hubby and his dad were there too. i found a message on my phone from mom (the message said "your mom thought santa arrived when she got your call!") when i called her back i told her to turn tv on cos something weird was going on. she said that there was a terror alert. i then saw these missles and vapor trails and told mom "i see missles!" and she started to cry, saying "i just want a second chance" (at what? i have no idea). lily chin was also there (i have no idear why lily chin was in kreamer) but she was crying and i was trying to comfort her. i kept telling my mom "i love you, call nany and dad and tell them i love them too" and i'm bawling and then i woke up.

i was so freaked out i turned tv on to see if there were no emergencies (none noted). i got a drink of water and went to the bathroom. i was so freaked out i went upstairs. i cried and hubby comforted me. even the boy heard my crying, he was worried about me. poor boy - he's used to having bad dreams and us comforting him. i think it was weird for him to see mommy having a bad dream and needing comforting.

hubby thought the dream meant that there was going to be a life-changing event (duh, name them...baby, twins, buying a new van) in my life. maybe so, but the dream didn't have to be so realistic.

last night's dream was weird but not scary. i dreamt that mom, dad and i went to london and we were in a store. we had gotten food and dad had this scalloped potato dish and i kept saying "these are the best potatoes i've ever had!" i was also buying erasers, mini highlighter pens and a pack of snoopy playing cards "so we could play card games back at the hotel room."

then i dreamt i was back in my old childhood house (it must be february - i always have my old house dreams in february). i dreamt that someone took our mail and ripped it up. my aunt and cousin were helping to pick up the pieces and my cousin found a card with money in it - why didn't they take the money? the hoods that ripped up our mail then came back to laugh at us (the head hooligan looked just like drew carey). i yelled at him and picked up a bamboo knitting needle and stabbed him in the stomach. then i called the police to tell them that someone ripped up my mail and that i caught the guys who did it, and i stabbed the one guy with a needle. then i woke up.


i've always been a lucid dreamer. it's astonishing how i can remember the smallest details of some dreams. the boy takes after me with dreams - he's pretty lucid. hubby says he hardly dreams and when he does they are usually snapshots.

i always have reoccuring dreams either about school or work. at work, i'm getting yelled out. if it's a school dream, it's usually about the last day of school, it's my math final, and i haven't been to class all year and i worry about how i'm going to have a good grade when i haven't attended class. or my locker is messy/lost/can't remember my combination and i'm late for the bus.

i also have reoccuring dreams about my old house. usually it's finding another room that i never knew existed (usually in the attic). or i find a passage in my closet that takes me to rooms or things i never knew existed, or else held things i had when i was little.

weird ass dreams.

when i was younger i used to dream that my mother was having a baby. i used to get angry in these dreams, usually when i was older. i got these dreams around my birthday time. once my birthday passed the dreams did too until my next birthday. i think these dreams are an only-child phenomena. i talked to other onlies about this dream and i wasn't alone. when i considered grad school i considered analyzing these dreams for a thesis but there was no way i could quantify them. i'm sure there's some psychological idea behind them. i haven't had a mom and baby dream in years.

i love dreams - trying to figure them out, wondering why my brain thought them up. dreams are amazing.