i've now hit 21 weeks. YY are moving around a bit more, i'm constipated, and i crave foods that i shouldn't eat (like carnival fries and pie).
i'm more tired now. last week i ran to target and the grocery store, and the hour long jaunt made me really tired. the babies feel so heavy in my belly. it's weird having a belly balloon so quickly. with the boy, my belly grew gradually, and i didn't pop big until i was 7-8 months pregnant. in a way, this pregnancy feels cheated. i'm growing so quickly, my symptoms are much worse, and i just can't get comfortable anymore. and if i feel this lousy now, at 5 months, what am i going to feel like a few weeks from now, or in july, when the heat index is through the roof?
my 20 week checkup went well. the babies are 13 and 14 ounces respectively. when i looked up my week in my pregnancy book, the babies are weighing a few weeks ahead, like 22 weeks. this is astonishing, considering i have 2 babies crowding my belly. i thought they'd be smaller. we also had an ultrasound. baby a (on my left) was laying low, with "his" back towards the wand. we didn't get to see any features except the back (looks good) and the head. baby b (on my right) was laying higher up, and we got a good view of "her" profile. both babies are looking good, measuring well, and have strong hearts. i do not know what we are having, we don't want to know and want to be surprised when they are born. but my intuition says that baby a is a boy, and baby b is a girl. i hope i'm correct. i hope at least one of these babies is a boy. actually, they could both be boys and i'd be happy, since it would mean less shopping for clothes and toys and such. but, a part of me wishes for a girl, since i want to prove that i am capable of carrying a girl, since my miscarriages were (i think) girls.
it's funny, but i thought there'd be more fuss about the twins from people. i thought people at church would be "how are you, how are you feeling?", yada yada yada. no one really says anything. maybe it's becos i project myself as a highly private person (as i am in real life, except i'm sharing these thoughts with the world, funny as it seems). maybe people just don't care. whatever. i try no to take it to heart. but it hurts just the same. i've fussed over other people's pregnancies. i guess turnaround's not fair play.
i'm at a knitting impasse. i finished the second baby blanket. i have a bib to finish, gram's sock to finish, and the tree skirt to finish. i started a square for the glenn beck "we surround them" blanket. i should be knitting more baby things, but i don't know what to knit, and don't know how to start. oh, i know what to knit, have most of the supplies. but for some reason, i just can't.
i'm more tired now. last week i ran to target and the grocery store, and the hour long jaunt made me really tired. the babies feel so heavy in my belly. it's weird having a belly balloon so quickly. with the boy, my belly grew gradually, and i didn't pop big until i was 7-8 months pregnant. in a way, this pregnancy feels cheated. i'm growing so quickly, my symptoms are much worse, and i just can't get comfortable anymore. and if i feel this lousy now, at 5 months, what am i going to feel like a few weeks from now, or in july, when the heat index is through the roof?
my 20 week checkup went well. the babies are 13 and 14 ounces respectively. when i looked up my week in my pregnancy book, the babies are weighing a few weeks ahead, like 22 weeks. this is astonishing, considering i have 2 babies crowding my belly. i thought they'd be smaller. we also had an ultrasound. baby a (on my left) was laying low, with "his" back towards the wand. we didn't get to see any features except the back (looks good) and the head. baby b (on my right) was laying higher up, and we got a good view of "her" profile. both babies are looking good, measuring well, and have strong hearts. i do not know what we are having, we don't want to know and want to be surprised when they are born. but my intuition says that baby a is a boy, and baby b is a girl. i hope i'm correct. i hope at least one of these babies is a boy. actually, they could both be boys and i'd be happy, since it would mean less shopping for clothes and toys and such. but, a part of me wishes for a girl, since i want to prove that i am capable of carrying a girl, since my miscarriages were (i think) girls.
it's funny, but i thought there'd be more fuss about the twins from people. i thought people at church would be "how are you, how are you feeling?", yada yada yada. no one really says anything. maybe it's becos i project myself as a highly private person (as i am in real life, except i'm sharing these thoughts with the world, funny as it seems). maybe people just don't care. whatever. i try no to take it to heart. but it hurts just the same. i've fussed over other people's pregnancies. i guess turnaround's not fair play.
i'm at a knitting impasse. i finished the second baby blanket. i have a bib to finish, gram's sock to finish, and the tree skirt to finish. i started a square for the glenn beck "we surround them" blanket. i should be knitting more baby things, but i don't know what to knit, and don't know how to start. oh, i know what to knit, have most of the supplies. but for some reason, i just can't.
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