hot stash

since saturday i started posting my stash on ravelry. so far i have 48 yarns stashed. and i'm not even a quarter of the way in my stash guide! i'm like carrie and her shoes - she couldn't afford her apartment but she had at least 40 grand in shoes. i must have thousands invested in my stash.

my stash guide is a moleskein book where i paste the yarn label and usually a piece of yarn. i jot down where and when i bought the yarn and sometimes note what i've used it for. my book is almost bursting at the seams and believe it or not there are still some blank pages left. i have another book waiting when this one is filled.

i still can't get over how much damn yarn i have.

my neighbor's kid is wailing and it is pulling on all my strength not to yell out the window and yell "shut that damn kid up." i realize that sounds really cold but still the sound of a crying baby depresses me and makes me think that my baby would be 14 weeks along. i might even be feeling it move. everything baby seems to make me sad nowadays.

but i did buy something yesterday with the hope that it will happen again. i bought a tiny baseball rattle/teether at katie's. even girls can like baseball too. i really can't wait to try again. i hope we get pregnant as quickly as we did this last time. this is has been pure hell for me. and i don't know what i'll do if i can't get pregnant.

the dining room is finished and looks gorgeous. we have to move the furniture back. then friday hubby will polyurethane the living room and once again we'll live in one room for about 3 days. it's been a dirty messy job but i honestly hope my allergies alleviate when this is over. mom found several spots of black mold on the living room rug. no wonder i'm sick all the time.

speaking of sick, my derm called again. i thought he was just nuts cos he started relaying my vitamin d results, until he started talking about other antibiotic cycles. if i have to go on another antibiotic i will cry. my body is already messed up from being on antibiotics last year. plus i want to get pregnant and i can't if i have take meds. fuck the meds and the boils, i want to be pregnant! i told my derm about my allergies and my gut problems and now he thinks THEY have something to do with my HS. so i have to get tested for celiac disease. sometimes i wonder if a few rounds of acupuncture wouldn't cure what's wrong with me.

time to post more stash.