i finally took hold of my own destiny and became my own advocate. i finally called a reproductive endocrinologist and made an appointment. after 6 cycles, 2 miscarriages, being insulin resistant and having high blood pressure, not to mention the anxiety i've had for the past 2 months, i decided enough is enough, and i want to have my fertility and hubby's checked. my hair is still shedding after 6 months, longer than it ever did after i had the boy. my boobs feel like boulders, yet i'm barely past my o time. i'm tired all the time, i just want to crawl out of my skin. this is not normal. and i guess my GP and ob/gyn don't care how i feel, only what money they can bilk out of me and my insurance. so on monday, hopefully i'll have some more answers.
today is a snow day, with the boy home from school and hubby home from work. they were outside playing in the snow. i roasted a chicken and am waiting for it to cool so i can de-bone it and make stock. i'm going to use the stock to make matzo ball soup. we're not jewish, but i always wondered how to make matzo ball soup. i got potatoes for latkas, i'll make them next week.
i can't help but feel grateful for what i have this season. i am coming up to my due date, and the past few months have been very hard for me. but i'm trying to get past that and be thankful for what i have. i already have a beautiful healthy boy, smart as a whip, who tries my patience but i wouldn't have it any other way. i have a wonderful husband who loves me, accepts me for who i am, and doesn't get upset at my craziness. my family is there for me and has done so much for us this year. we have a warm house which is more than what a lot of people in this world have. we have food, even tho the cost of it is eating through our budget. i thank God every day that i am healthy and that with time and patience the kinks will be worked out.
i look at what i have and think i don't need anything else. really, i don't. i thought of this yesterday as i was wrapping more presents and sorting them to go to various households. we had a load of presents under that tree, even after the majority of them were packed into baskets. i have so much.
it is snowing heavily outside. as much as i hate winter and the nuisance that snow is, i love the look of it, the smell of it, the sound of it. i love listening to the snow. so quiet.
today is a snow day, with the boy home from school and hubby home from work. they were outside playing in the snow. i roasted a chicken and am waiting for it to cool so i can de-bone it and make stock. i'm going to use the stock to make matzo ball soup. we're not jewish, but i always wondered how to make matzo ball soup. i got potatoes for latkas, i'll make them next week.
i can't help but feel grateful for what i have this season. i am coming up to my due date, and the past few months have been very hard for me. but i'm trying to get past that and be thankful for what i have. i already have a beautiful healthy boy, smart as a whip, who tries my patience but i wouldn't have it any other way. i have a wonderful husband who loves me, accepts me for who i am, and doesn't get upset at my craziness. my family is there for me and has done so much for us this year. we have a warm house which is more than what a lot of people in this world have. we have food, even tho the cost of it is eating through our budget. i thank God every day that i am healthy and that with time and patience the kinks will be worked out.
i look at what i have and think i don't need anything else. really, i don't. i thought of this yesterday as i was wrapping more presents and sorting them to go to various households. we had a load of presents under that tree, even after the majority of them were packed into baskets. i have so much.
it is snowing heavily outside. as much as i hate winter and the nuisance that snow is, i love the look of it, the smell of it, the sound of it. i love listening to the snow. so quiet.
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